I'm sorry my darling birds that you had to die.

I'm sorry that I couldn't stop it in time.

I'm sorry you laid on the hard ground of the aviary until we found you today.

I'm sorry that you couldn't keep your babies alive, no matter how hard you tried.

I'm sorry that I didn't spend as much time with you as I used to.

I'm sorry that you had to go.

I'm sorry Remus that I didn't take many photos of you, like I did with Zack. I wish i had, for the photo above is the only one I have of your beautiful self.

 

Starcrossed lovers of the budgie world, my darling Remus and Zack. You were my perfect pair and I had hoped to breed a female chick from a clutch of yours with Dalek.

 

Zack you were my first budgie I brought, a beautiful little boy (Who turned in to an amazingly beautiful little girl). I brought you home from the pet shop in this box,

 

 

You chattered and bounced around the box all through the half an hour journey to get home. My special little bundle, I held on to the box as if it was made of glass and could shatter at any time. I cooed to you in the back seat, much to my parents annoyance, and I was completly over joyed with my new friend.

 

When we put you in the aviary, you were so small compaired to the other birds, my darling little angel. The smallest of the bunch, but with the biggest attitude. Now that i've read up on budgies more, I realised that you had all the signs of a female from the very beginning. How neive I was to think that I was right and you were a boy.

 

You loved your greens, and you were always the first one to grab them as soon as I pushed them through the bars.

 

And then your life changed when you met Remus. My beautiful little yellow faced boy. I brought him home with his friend Padfoot, another yellow faced budgie, and I think that you nearly swooned off the perch when Remus flew up and landed next to you, puffing himself up in all his glory and then grooming himself.

 

I swear you developed a school girl crush right then and there.

 

And as the weeks passed you two became inseperable, where one was, the other always followed. Remus waited on you hand and foot, and even drank water to give to you when you couldn't be bothered flying to the dish.

 

Remus my darling, you were my lovely little boy, reminding me so much of Ianto from my favorite show Torchwood. So loyal to Zack and feircly protective, when we took Zack out to treat for scalyface, you attacked the cage until we let you in with her. *** you flew in the door with out me even needing to catch you. You huddled next to her in that hospital cage and groomed her as she sat sickly on the perch. You chattered at me angrily when i had to put the medicine on her to make her better, and you were always ready with a crop full of seed to welcome her back to the cage when I was done.

 

Even in death you two can't be seperated, and as the soil fell on to your lifeless bodies, I couldn't help but think one sentance over and over again.

 

I'm sorry I failed you my darlings, I'm sorry.

 

 

RIP Zack and Remus. May you fly together always in heaven. I will miss you, until we meet again one day.

Such lovely little birds. I'm so sorry.

 

Sometimes these things happen and there's nothing we could have done that would change things.

 

Run through a checklist to see if there's something wrong with the birds or in the aviary. If you find something you can fix it. But don't blame yourself.